"Crying means admitting you've been hurt."
Film paper due tomorrow at 2:30. 5-6 days in Bellbrook after that. I want to get excited about that right now, but I can't. Josh and I had a huge fight tonight. But I'm not entirely sure he knows it was a fight. He didn't want to see me because we spent a lot of time (meaning Friday and Saturday nights) together over the weekend, and he wanted "me" time. Which I interpreted as "I don't want to see you because I've seen you too much." Which, regardless of what he meant, is what he made it sound like. Now, if he had just explained, "I'm really stressed out right now, and i just need to be alone," I probably would have handled it better. It just hurt to hear, or read rather, that my boyfriend didn't want to see me because we spent too much time together this weekend. I've been having a really hard time the last few days, and I needed him here tonight, and hearing that was a bad blow. Especially since we're not going to see each other for about a week. I cried because of him tonight. I hate crying. That quote up there is by me. I never cry over guys. I've only cried over 2 in my life. Ted and my real dad. Of course, they were for completely different reasons. I don't want to smother Josh at all, I love him very much. So I told him that he can call me when he wants to talk to me, that way I'm not interrupting guy or me time, and I'm not invading his space or whatever. I don't know what I'm saying now, really. I'm still rather upset. So yeah...Happy Thanksgiving...But you know, I'd rather be sad and cry because of him, than be without him. He's probably going to read this. But it's nothing he doesn't already know because of our lovely conversation. I love him though, with all of my heart.
In case anyone who reads this cares, lol, I'll be back Tuesday night and am staying until Sunday morning. Wednesday afternoon, I'm chillin' with my little sibs, and Wednesday night is RENT! night! So if you're free, call me! Thursday obviously is Turkey Day, Friday I'm going with the lovely Cricket to the Cincy Zoo, and on Saturday, I'm wide open. So call me, if ya want...
In the spirit of Turkey Day, I will now list what I'm thankful for...
~ First and foremost, I'm thankful for Josh. Even though we just had a fight, I love him. He's my best friend, boyfriend, everything. I love you, baby.
~ ALL of my AMAZING friends. I wouldn't be able to get through my day without you!
~ Kelly, for being such an awesome roomie. We're so lucky to find someone to put up with us, eh Kel?
~ Meg(h)an^2
~ My voice. Well, and music in general.
~ My mom. She doesn't read this, but she's pretty much the best ever. I don't know what I'd do without her.
~ My little sibs, especially Abby.
~ A home, food, and warmth
~ Money to go to college
~ My pets
~ The Sundial's Stir-Fry
~ Ben and Jerry's
~ Ron Weasley
~ Draco Malfoy
~ Severus Snape...oookay, I'll stop with the Harry Potter stuff...
~ Josh
~ JK Rowling...okay, now I'm done.
~ Death Cab for Cutie
~ My family in general
~ Geoff Stephenson's theatre class
~ Doug Bailey!
~ Josh
~ Shakespeare
~ Ms. Long giving me the experiences I had
~ The stage
~ Being able to read, see, hear, etc...
There are SO many more things I'm thankful for. But I forg----OH! SPORKS! I'm thankful for sporks...::ahem:: Sorry. Anyways..Yes...That's only a small amount of stuff I'm thankful for.
What are YOU thankful for?
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